By: Janet Blair
Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord; Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy. If you, Lord, kept a record of sins, Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, with reverence, serve you. I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning. Israel, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins. – Psalm 130
We are faced with seemingly hopeless situations throughout our lives. Unplanned pregnancies, sexual abuse, verbal aggression abound. Personally, it was the murder of a six-month-old child that brought me to my lowest point. A pointless suffocation. The sound of the silenced crying filled my ears – crying which God alone had heard. Psalm 130 flickered through my head in the emotional chaos. I stood by the watchmen, aching for some sign of the dawn in the midst of utter darkness.
I will wait. I will wait.
In the hopeless midnight, watchmen must make a decision. For some, the aching is too painful. Many turn their backs on their maker and say, “How could God allow this evil to happen?” The watchmen give up, go inside the windowless city walls, and stop wondering whether it is morning or night. Others submit to what feels inevitable – abortion, shame, repeated abuse. The small voice of hope seems so powerless. The watchmen stop watching for the dawn and seek any relief from the bitter cold.
But there is another choice. In the midst of the blackest night, to stand with our feet firmly planted on the wall of God’s promises and on His word. To not let the bleakness of the current reality block out the beauty of future reality. To watch for the first light in the East and to not turn in any another direction, for we know where our salvation comes from.
I will watch and wait for the Lord. With him is unfailing love and with him is FULL redemption, how I long for it. In Christ, all the unwanted children are adopted and loved beyond measure, the shame of sexual abuse is turned to praise and all our anger is transformed to rejoicing. In him, the suffocated infant has been given eternal life and a home of perfect love.
He himself will redeem Israel.
Janet Blair is a singer-songwriter. She released her debut album, “Songs for the Waiting” in April. The album was produced by Jars’ of Clay, Matthew Odmark. The track “For Shania (I will Wait)” can be heard here: http://hyperurl.co/wzmf5k